30 Day Shred: This better work
Posted in Body Image, Need to lose weight and tagged with 30 Day Shred, goals on 06/30/2009 07:07 pm by Rachael
I am on day 12 of the 30 Day Shred and I am kicking my own ASS for not taking a before picture. I also want to punch myself in the face for not taking any measurements because this is the type of plan in which these two activities are essential.Â
You see as things droop stand I am building muscle for the first time in years. A decade really. And being almost 100% body fat, the process of burning that and building muscle is actually making the scale go up. UP. And seeing those brutal numbers rise makes me want to crawl into bed and never come out.Â
So by not having a before picture, or any measurements, the number on the scale is making me feel like a failure.
So I am going to have the husband do these things for me tonight (hopefully he will have managed this insane task called getting the kids bathed and in bed before 10pm when I am due home) so I can get a more acurate representation of my efforts.Â
And…
I am going to post the before and after pictures when I am done. And if you know me, you know how hard this will be for me. Because when it comes right down to it I am just vein, and absolutely mortified at the way I look; with they way I have let myself go.Â
But…
This is necessary for a number of reasons. The first being I need to own my body, and stop pretending like the world hasn’t noticed I got fat. I need to embrace myself at this weight and stop letting the extra layer(s) validate me as a person.
 The second reason is to help motivate others. When I googled 30 Day Shred before and after pictures, most of the results I found were ladies that were already thin to begin with. Not so much help for me, or others that may have 50 or more pounds to lose.Â
And besides the self therapy and the motivation for others, I want to have documentation of my journey. While this will never be a fitness blog, having a place to track my progress and results will be huge for keeping my fat ass off the couch eye on the prize.Â
And the prize is huge, the rewards many. To name a small few…Â
- Self Confidence
- Pride
- Healthy Sex Life
- Active lifestyle
- Success
- Cute Clothes
- Enjoying the Summer (for the first time in years)
- AccomplishmentÂ
So here begins my documented journey and I pray that I stick with my plans…because if I attempt and fail at losing weight one more time, my husband better just order a crane to lift my obese-ness and break me out of the bedroom through the roof of the house.
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June 30th, 2009 at 8:52 pm
Good for you. I’m looking forward to seeing the pics!!
July 1st, 2009 at 3:42 pm
Stop weighing yourself!! Chuck it out the window! Let how you feel guide you instead. I’m proud of you for setting your goal, I know you can do it!
July 9th, 2009 at 9:22 am
Good for you! I am hoping you get great results!! I may be doing this after the babies get here!
August 25th, 2009 at 5:21 pm
[...] But promise I did so here they come.